Auntyhood or The Project of Living or Reproductive Justice for All (2022)
Content warning: abortion
When I was nine my aunty took me / ice-skating then to her house / opened a door called it my room / took me in to stay for goodness sake! / Back and forth here and there and everywhere / avate vutoo maadu polai is no place for a child to grow a sense of I / have always known what I was born from / Twenty years of marriage / something so wanted / an impossibility
I don’t know why my cousinsister tells me / the abortion did not work / no / the sought abortion never found / no / the wanted abortion never spoke / My mum thinks my aunty stole my love
I remember what no one remembers / Tuesdays half three to half four / aunty’s silver Honda through Wembley for veena class / cheese on toast from squishy white bread red onion green chilli number 4 strength cheddar cheese / fused to a tin foil wrapping I lick clean / I will always want metallic on my lips
At night I copypaste campaign posts / Reproductive justice for all / We will not go back / My body my choice / Mum is not sure she wants to live a half-life / but I am trying / to make cheese on toast the way she does / so I might feed a child with her hands.